מה נשאר, 

ממילים שנראו כל כך חשובות?

הן נשכחו על ידיך ועל ידי.

ובידי לא נשאר שום סימן,

שהן אי פעם היו קדושות.

Memories, don't go easily,
they only pass to rise again.
How strong the illusion,
that times were perfect,
and could be again.

(picture from:

http://blog.tsemtulku.com/tsem-tulku-rinpoche/film-tv-music/the-buddha-the-story-of-siddhartha.html

I just needed to add some picture, cause blogger can't upload just audio..this is a picture of the first discourse given by the Buddha after his enlightenment, after which it is said, the entire universe shook, and the wheel of Dhamma started rolling)

We judge each other,
for the faults we fear finding in ourselves.
There is no point in forcing polite conversation,
it would only be an insult.
But walking back and forth in the same corridor,
each with his own thoughts,
I know we are brothers.

How strong the reluctance to risk losing social value is.
You would expect that perhaps a girl would not want to kiss a guy
acting weird that she doesn't know.
But what's interesting in this video, is that also guys refuse to kiss a
beautiful girl, when she is acting in a way that is `weird', like she is one of the outcasts
they do not want to associate with (see e.g. 2:25 below)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?annotation_id=annotation_65850&feature=iv&src_vid=YvupkMJWAaM&v=YkZav1m9oSI

We don't want to look at ourselves.
And what are we? Just a stream of thoughts, emotions, physical sensations.
We are very selective.
We are willing to acknowledge we are this stream, only when very
particular thoughts, emotions and sensations are there.
So we take a peak only in situations where we are guaranteed
to find those particular thoughts and emotions, like when we get a caffeine boost.
Like someone who is uncomfortable with a certain part of his body,
constantly tries to look away, and instead imagines the perfect flat stomach.
True peace, true confidence comes, when every moment you are aware and comfortable with the fact that you are this stream..containing positive and negative thoughts and emotions, pleasant and unpleasant sensations.
When you do not try to pretend you are something other than this stream, you feel comfortable with anyone, in any situation.

He knew he was still too weak,
he would keep losing this battle.
So in a deal with an angel,
he gave up his free will.
He voluntarily put himself in a prison,
with no stimulation, only his darkness appeared.
For thousands of years, he would repeatedly practice facing his sadness, facing his despair.
Time passed, he forgot who he was, forgot  there was any other place in the world besides
this dark hole,
that this was only a training ground.
He would become the diamond that is forged in the depth of the earth,
were only pressure and solid ground exists, no air to float in.
These minds who chose this path, were not regular diamonds.
They grew in a black hole where pressure gradually became infinite.

I close my eyes,
and imagine demons around me are angels.

I see the ball of light behind their eyes,
their thoughts and mine touch,
they go to battle in an ancient forest,
that we have never left.

Freed from all distractions,
the real battle of souls continues,
after falling a thousand times,
we march again.

Colors are sharp.
Spears are sharp, penetrating.
Stakes are high,
the cries of battle drown cynicism immediately.

Freed from all comforting illusions,
the battle for your soul desperately continues.
Fearing being imprisoned again,
you run, this time into your enemy, not away from him.

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ztzMII6T-U4

We have misconceptions about what is good for us and what not,
because we keep forgetting to ask the most basic question
`When I am in situation X, is what is going on in my body pleasant or unpleasant?'
In the middle of work, you get caught up in a sexual fantasy.
All your attention is in that thought, and none of it is in your body.
You assume it is basically pleasant,
but if you actually observe what is going on in your body at that
moment, you would feel mainly tension, contraction, discontent.
When you notice that, as you are not consciously masochistic, the
energy behind that thought automatically weakens.
This is how you can explore the natural law.
Whatever physical or mental action you take, see if it generates pleasant or unpleasant sensations in the body.

All is well,

no need to say you're sorry.

It's all OK,
there was no other way
it could be.

It's all so well.
It's waiting all for you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gwAVuFK_wds

On the galaxy circus,
the gods were watching him,
walking on the tight rope stretched from the moon to the sun.
His challenge was not to lose his balance as the heat grew.
It was the test they all passed to become masters of space.

It was a huge effort of mind over matter,
and with each step, the matter of his body
become lighter, less dense.

Though he met the Buddha,
who told him there was nothing but disappointment
outside of this narrow path,
that was not what drove him.

In the back of his mind,
the astral connection he once made
on earth was still guiding his steps.

He fantasized about having only his astral body left,
so that their union could be more real, more complete.

Perhaps it was a trick that the Buddha planted deep in his mind.
For by the time he reached the sun, he saw not one unique angel,
but millions shining equally as bright.

The universe does not give you what you want,
because it wants you to grow into something larger.
You have an idea in your head
`I will marry this girl. I will have this job.
Everything will be perfect'
You don't get the girl..or you don't get the job..
or you get both but also get some terrible disease with them.
You are forced to broaden your concept of who you are,
of what life is supposed to be.
You are stretched in every direction.
How much the stretching is torture, and how much it
is an adventure, depends on your ability to not resist.
How much effort it takes to not do anything!
Because it is so against your habbit.
You must choose your environment well.
Find the few beings who are already aligned with the evolutionary impulse of expansion,
who are engulfed in a deep positive vibration.
Be influenced by them.
It is a narrow path that leads to heaven.

Sitting for many hours in a meditation course,
you keep trying to find the comfortable way sit -
an extra cushion on your knee, another cushion to pull your butt up,
then you try less cushions.
Maybe the same thing happens in life on a larger scale -
you try to be with someone..you feel trapped, then you try to be with yourself..
after a while you feel lonely.
The basic sense of discontent always finds the place where it can
manifest.
Like when you sit meditating in a certain posture, there will be some point
on your leg, or behind, or somewhere where there is more pressure being put,
and the physical discomfort can manifest there.
As a friend recently said to me, we need to enjoy the imperfectness of life.
That imperfection always manifests somehow, in any situation, and it is always the doorway through which true dissolvement  of that basic sense of discontent can happen.

It is better to hear it from a master
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=341U2YUjaZw