With a little distance, we're falling apart.

Nothing to hold us together, but our thoughts and words.

They are not as strong as habits, my habit to find comfort within, not

to reach out. Your habit to magnify problems, not ignore them.

No Assumptions

Look at yourself in the mirror, instead of assuming what you will find.

You are not the devil from your worst nightmares,

you are not the disgusting creature you imagine in your most indulgent moments.

Even then you still have some light in your eyes, keeping you human.

waiting

An important object of spiritual practice seems to be staying nice and positive while things are shitty. I view this from a karmic - or the more cooler Pali kammic - view point, as being about not being tempted to sow more bad seeds, because of a present bad harvest. I have been feeling sick and very crappy for a few days now, and find how far back I am in this respect - deteriorating up to cutting in line for the nurse in front of a woman with a crying baby (well it was my turn, but the nurse seemed to think the baby crying gives the mom a right to be first).
But like everything it is just practice and later when I was in line to by a chocolate croissant,
there were no babies in front of me.
Of course, it should not be just repression - but true positivity - in case of repression maybe it is better to yell at old people cutting in line for the doctor.

Silent song you made.
Silent prayer to fade.
Silent time you prayed.

No more songs to sing,
No more time to think,
No more thoughts to face..

Last time to be left behind,
Last mind to carry through time..

Hmm...

No more lies to tell,
No more thoughts to make,
No more emptiness,
No more pain, only rest.

Now only the wise stand,
only warmth, only rest.