You brought the ocean into my life.
I try to fit you into my rigid perceptions.
Each time, I struggle and feel `Now I have you under control!'
But the battle supposedly won, was just a wave that came and passed.
And always a larger one is coming,
shattering perceptions and rules.
You force me to strip all layers.
You are stronger than me, at least in a certain way.
You will not surrender until I meet you naked,
accepting the truth of you power in me.
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Sunday, May 26, 2013
regret of missed opportunities, of missed pleasures..
frustration at the unfairness of it,
torture a man..keep him running, keep him from breathing,
he cannot accept a world where his desire is not met,
it is unbearable.
He is in a nightmare, running away from a monster and chasing a beautiful princess.
The memory of her beauty and the ferocity of the monster keep him consumed in chasing and running.
He has the idea in his mind `The only real solution is to wake up!'.. but he does not know if he believes it right now.
To see if it is true, he must stop and sit, at the risk of losing the princess and being eaten by the monster.
Sit and return to the basics.. what are the basic realities?
There is pain, and freedom from pain.. at the depth of his experience those are the only options.
frustration at the unfairness of it,
torture a man..keep him running, keep him from breathing,
he cannot accept a world where his desire is not met,
it is unbearable.
He is in a nightmare, running away from a monster and chasing a beautiful princess.
The memory of her beauty and the ferocity of the monster keep him consumed in chasing and running.
He has the idea in his mind `The only real solution is to wake up!'.. but he does not know if he believes it right now.
To see if it is true, he must stop and sit, at the risk of losing the princess and being eaten by the monster.
Sit and return to the basics.. what are the basic realities?
There is pain, and freedom from pain.. at the depth of his experience those are the only options.
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Saturday, May 11, 2013
Memories, don't go easily,
they only pass to rise again.
How strong the illusion,
that times were perfect,
and could be again.
they only pass to rise again.
How strong the illusion,
that times were perfect,
and could be again.
(picture from:
I just needed to add some picture, cause blogger can't upload just audio..this is a picture of the first discourse given by the Buddha after his enlightenment, after which it is said, the entire universe shook, and the wheel of Dhamma started rolling)
Wednesday, May 08, 2013
How strong the reluctance to risk losing social value is.
You would expect that perhaps a girl would not want to kiss a guy
acting weird that she doesn't know.
But what's interesting in this video, is that also guys refuse to kiss a
beautiful girl, when she is acting in a way that is `weird', like she is one of the outcasts
they do not want to associate with (see e.g. 2:25 below)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?annotation_id=annotation_65850&feature=iv&src_vid=YvupkMJWAaM&v=YkZav1m9oSI
You would expect that perhaps a girl would not want to kiss a guy
acting weird that she doesn't know.
But what's interesting in this video, is that also guys refuse to kiss a
beautiful girl, when she is acting in a way that is `weird', like she is one of the outcasts
they do not want to associate with (see e.g. 2:25 below)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?annotation_id=annotation_65850&feature=iv&src_vid=YvupkMJWAaM&v=YkZav1m9oSI
Monday, May 06, 2013
We don't want to look at ourselves.
And what are we? Just a stream of thoughts, emotions, physical sensations.
We are very selective.
We are willing to acknowledge we are this stream, only when very
particular thoughts, emotions and sensations are there.
So we take a peek only in situations where we are guaranteed
to find those particular thoughts and emotions, like when we get a caffeine boost.
Like someone who is uncomfortable with a certain part of his body,
constantly tries to look away, and instead imagines the perfect flat stomach.
True peace, true confidence comes, when every moment you are aware and comfortable with the fact that you are this stream..containing positive and negative thoughts and emotions, pleasant and unpleasant sensations.
When you do not try to pretend you are something other than this stream, you feel comfortable with anyone, in any situation.
And what are we? Just a stream of thoughts, emotions, physical sensations.
We are very selective.
We are willing to acknowledge we are this stream, only when very
particular thoughts, emotions and sensations are there.
So we take a peek only in situations where we are guaranteed
to find those particular thoughts and emotions, like when we get a caffeine boost.
Like someone who is uncomfortable with a certain part of his body,
constantly tries to look away, and instead imagines the perfect flat stomach.
True peace, true confidence comes, when every moment you are aware and comfortable with the fact that you are this stream..containing positive and negative thoughts and emotions, pleasant and unpleasant sensations.
When you do not try to pretend you are something other than this stream, you feel comfortable with anyone, in any situation.
Friday, May 03, 2013
He knew he was still too weak,
he would keep losing this battle.
So in a deal with an angel,
he gave up his free will.
He voluntarily put himself in a prison,
with no stimulation, only his darkness appeared.
For thousands of years, he would repeatedly practice facing his sadness, facing his despair.
Time passed, he forgot who he was, forgot there was any other place in the world besides
this dark hole,
that this was only a training ground.
He would become the diamond that is forged in the depth of the earth,
were only pressure and solid ground exists, no air to float in.
These minds who chose this path, were not regular diamonds.
They grew in a black hole where pressure gradually became infinite.
he would keep losing this battle.
So in a deal with an angel,
he gave up his free will.
He voluntarily put himself in a prison,
with no stimulation, only his darkness appeared.
For thousands of years, he would repeatedly practice facing his sadness, facing his despair.
Time passed, he forgot who he was, forgot there was any other place in the world besides
this dark hole,
that this was only a training ground.
He would become the diamond that is forged in the depth of the earth,
were only pressure and solid ground exists, no air to float in.
These minds who chose this path, were not regular diamonds.
They grew in a black hole where pressure gradually became infinite.
Thursday, April 25, 2013
I close my eyes,
and imagine demons around me are angels.
I see the ball of light behind their eyes,
their thoughts and mine touch,
they go to battle in an ancient forest,
that we have never left.
Freed from all distractions,
the real battle of souls continues,
after falling a thousand times,
we march again.
Colors are sharp.
Spears are sharp, penetrating.
Stakes are high,
the cries of battle drown cynicism immediately.
Freed from all comforting illusions,
the battle for your soul desperately continues.
Fearing being imprisoned again,
you run, this time into your enemy, not away from him.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ztzMII6T-U4
and imagine demons around me are angels.
I see the ball of light behind their eyes,
their thoughts and mine touch,
they go to battle in an ancient forest,
that we have never left.
Freed from all distractions,
the real battle of souls continues,
after falling a thousand times,
we march again.
Colors are sharp.
Spears are sharp, penetrating.
Stakes are high,
the cries of battle drown cynicism immediately.
Freed from all comforting illusions,
the battle for your soul desperately continues.
Fearing being imprisoned again,
you run, this time into your enemy, not away from him.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ztzMII6T-U4
We have misconceptions about what is good for us and what not,
because we keep forgetting to ask the most basic question
`When I am in situation X, is what is going on in my body pleasant or unpleasant?'
In the middle of work, you get caught up in a sexual fantasy.
All your attention is in that thought, and none of it is in your body.
You assume it is basically pleasant,
but if you actually observe what is going on in your body at that
moment, you would feel mainly tension, contraction, discontent.
When you notice that, as you are not consciously masochistic, the
energy behind that thought automatically weakens.
This is how you can explore the natural law.
Whatever physical or mental action you take, see if it generates pleasant or unpleasant sensations in the body.
because we keep forgetting to ask the most basic question
`When I am in situation X, is what is going on in my body pleasant or unpleasant?'
In the middle of work, you get caught up in a sexual fantasy.
All your attention is in that thought, and none of it is in your body.
You assume it is basically pleasant,
but if you actually observe what is going on in your body at that
moment, you would feel mainly tension, contraction, discontent.
When you notice that, as you are not consciously masochistic, the
energy behind that thought automatically weakens.
This is how you can explore the natural law.
Whatever physical or mental action you take, see if it generates pleasant or unpleasant sensations in the body.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
On the galaxy circus,
the gods were watching him,
walking on the tight rope stretched from the moon to the sun.
His challenge was not to lose his balance as the heat grew.
It was the test they all passed to become masters of space.
It was a huge effort of mind over matter,
and with each step, the matter of his body
become lighter, less dense.
Though he met the Buddha,
who told him there was nothing but disappointment
outside of this narrow path,
that was not what drove him.
In the back of his mind,
the astral connection he once made
on earth was still guiding his steps.
He fantasized about having only his astral body left,
so that their union could be more real, more complete.
Perhaps it was a trick that the Buddha planted deep in his mind.
For by the time he reached the sun, he saw not one unique angel,
but millions shining equally as bright.
the gods were watching him,
walking on the tight rope stretched from the moon to the sun.
His challenge was not to lose his balance as the heat grew.
It was the test they all passed to become masters of space.
It was a huge effort of mind over matter,
and with each step, the matter of his body
become lighter, less dense.
Though he met the Buddha,
who told him there was nothing but disappointment
outside of this narrow path,
that was not what drove him.
In the back of his mind,
the astral connection he once made
on earth was still guiding his steps.
He fantasized about having only his astral body left,
so that their union could be more real, more complete.
Perhaps it was a trick that the Buddha planted deep in his mind.
For by the time he reached the sun, he saw not one unique angel,
but millions shining equally as bright.
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